Today I have had a “duh factor” event. “Duh” as many of you know, is a common Americanism in which something stupid happened, or someone finally has a realization that makes him or her feel temporary stupidity.
My “Duh factor event” today was that I finally found the notifications here at the blog and therefore finally read your comments. Due to what happened, I apologize to all of you who responded to me weeks ago without my having even realized that you had bothered to reply, especially since your acknowledgement is part of what keeps me going with blogging. Aside from that, thank you everyone who read a post, liked it and bothered to respond in some tangible manner. Most of you also know that however much we try to believe the “stats” we are all justifiably suspicious that somehow the information exchange feedback is not entirely accurate.
After the Duh
In reality, like so many of you, I seem to “get” some aspects of how to use this technology very easily but not “getting” the whole thing, or all aspects of how to make the best use of online systems all at once.
While living in Germany, there were at least 6 months when I learned and figured out something new about how to get around online every day. Other times, I don’t learn at that pace.
Also like most of the rest of you, when I go to do something only to discover that I have to learn a lot just to do it, I sometimes get a little freaked out and try to learn as rapidly as possible. During such times, I often get somewhat worked up and easily frustrated with myself for not already knowing how to.
Today is just today. I perused around a little bit, wondering if I would easily find great inspiration for a new blog post. I don’t feel that much as if I did.
Despite that, I wanted to make some attempt to connect with whoever reads this, inspired by the recent increase in traffic and feedback, according to the stats.
For me personally, the saddest aspects of this Christmas are that I am not going to be able to include in person: my husband, my son, and maybe not my father and his wife and 2nd wife (now an ex, but the live out stepmother of most of my childhood with whom I am still in touch). The thing is that the reason I can’t include my husband is sordid, and weird. In truth, I was last married in 2005. I finally nearly got remarried in 2016. I won’t go into it further aside from sharing with you that I am very glad my ex-husband is alive and having reasonably good luck being married to someone other than me, although I would have preferred for him to succeed at being my husband rather than someone else’s for 5 decades of more instead. Still, I strongly prefer this to either of us being dead. The rest of them, I just have the problem of suffering from limitations of transportation or funding for transportation.
The best news for me about this Christmas is that I will be able to spend time in person with my mother. I am old enough to be very grateful that my parents are still alive and lucid. My mother is in excellent condition for her age, and my father is in ok condition sort of for his age. They are in their 80s. As well as that, I was able to get my son some presents, about which I am very grateful and happy. He is an adult now, by the way.
To the rest of you, I hope that you find a happiness during this time o year, whether you have a religious epiphany or a spiritual breakthrough or even just a good time with relatives….Kind words between you and your mother-in-law for example, or forgiveness between siblings.
God bless you this Christmas.