Awareness involves whatever is going on around oneself.
A dog invited me to go outside with her. This time I did. At least 4 birds moved twice because of what we did out there. The dog may have asked me to take her out for a walk but I don’t have enough of the instructions from those closer with the animal to be ready to do something like that but I am not strongly against the idea.
I feel I should go out today.
Last night there was such a drama that I thought this laptop had died, which would have made it difficult or impossible to send this message this way today. I might have managed it from the nearest library.
Today, I wanted to sell more copies of my books. I have some on hand and was going to try to do so in person.
It is early enough in the day and late enough that I should still do it even though I cannot do it the way I had intended at 9am this morning.
I like it better when self-employment actually works and I really earn money than when I work and it doesn’t pay off which makes it feel more like being a student or a slave or indentured servant.
When I was a school girl I diligently did my work even though they did not pay me. As a grown woman in the work world I sometimes wonder if that was the right thing to do or was actually a mistake because i should work more when people pay me given that I am not living in a Communist society.
I realize that if everyone was financially equal regardless I would probably feel more successful today than when I feel that no matter what I do, the expectation in general is that if it works properly I will be financially much wealthier and if it doesn’t pay well then there is a problem. I do not agree that money is always the best judged but I had wanted to do well financially. It does get weird.